8 weeks later

It has been 8 weeks since my little girl entered this world, and the lives of my family and me.

I know most women do not have to go through the things I have dealt with. I will not tell you what they were because most of them are gross, and all a result of Piper exiting my body, but I will tell you there were 5 of them and they were all completely unavoidable and out of my control.

They say that God won’t let you endure more than you can bare. Apparently I can bare a lot. And other people can bare more than me. A friend of mine has just lost her daughter. The baby was in the womb when she died, she was 2 weeks short of full term, and the mother was induced and had to endure child labor with nothing happy to look forward to at the end. I cannot say how much my heart breaks for her, and that I would go through everything I have gone through again every time in order to have a living and healthy baby. I cannot say why God would allow it in the lives of her family. I only know that He knows why.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)